What is the Jellybean Conspiracy?
by Howard Martin
Founder of the Jellybean Conspiracy
Look at a jar of jellybeans. You have to admit it’s a cheerful sight. Feast your eyes on those sweet little dumplings of sugar, pressing their pudgy faces against the glass, proudly offering themselves in a riot of colors: strawberry red, mandarin orange, lemon yellow, lime green, grape purple, licorice black and bubble-gum pink. Think about the universe in which they live. It’s a universe where every bean has its own special place and where each one at some time hears the words, so satisfying to a jellybean’s ears: “This jellybean is just right.”
Now imagine a human community as a jar of jellybeans. All different sizes and shapes, some gifted one way, some another, but no person without a distinct gift and no one person ultimately more important than another. In a jellybean community, each person is recognized as having a unique and irreplaceable contribution to make and each one is able to hear the words, “This person is just right.”
The Jellybean Conspiracy is a way of discovering what it takes to realize such a community. We call it a “conspiracy” because it brings people together to pass on a secret of potentially life-changing significance. The word is made up of two parts: “con-” which means “together,” and “spir-” which means, “to breathe.” To conspire is thus “to breathe together” or “to breathe as one.” A Jellybean Conspiracy is a project in which people of different gifts come together as one to tell the Jellybean Secret.
The Jellybean Secret is this: everyone’s life is important. According to Jellybean wisdom, we lay the foundation for a healthy community when each person — including the ones whose gifts are most hidden — is accepted as he or she is and given a fair opportunity to develop his or her potential. Surely that’s a secret worth passing on.
I had my own Jellybean experiences growing up. Three of my siblings — Olive, Alison, and Jeffi — were born with MPS that caused them to have multiple disabilities. I’ve shared a part of their story in the essay that follows. The Jellybean Conspiracy has been created, in part, to celebrate the lives of these three beloved Jellybeans and to honor the
memory of Rene Martin, the mother who affirmed and enhanced their lives over a span of twenty-six years.
It also honors the lives of Jellybeans everywhere, including those who are a part of the Jellybean Conspiracy Show and those who are in the audience. May we all be given the gift of being accepted in the great jellybean jar of life.
Jellybean has been funded by over 350 individual and corporate sponsors, following is just a sample of those who have so generously funded our theatre programs:
* Shumaker Family Foundation
* Cove Point Foundation
* Curry Family Foundation
* Muriel McBrien Kauffman Foundation
* DST Systems
* Service Partners
* Simply Divine Gift Shoppe St Andrews Episcopal Church
* Children’s Mercy Hospital
* KC Arts Fund: Metropolitan Arts Council
* ScriptPro Pharmacy Automation
* Butler Manufacturing
* Susanne Christopher Shutz Fund
* Nichols Company Charitable Trust
* Dunn Family Foundation
The "Dance With Me" Story
Treasures of Unexpected Brightness
By Linda Daugherty
Playwright in Residence, Dallas Children’s Theatre
My brother, Jon Gary Martinsen, was born May 24th, one month and two days after my eighth birthday. The birth of my only sibling had been excitedly anticipated by me, and in expectation of the event I assumed the duty of pushing the shopping cart for my almost forty-year-old pregnant mother. At last the day came and my brother was born. While my mother recovered in the hospital for over a week, my Great Aunt Lena came to take care of me. During those long days I remember sensing a strange vibration in the air, my father’s sad brown eyes and the injustice of Aunt Lena’s decree that I was not to cross the street to visit my best friend Darlene, a freedom I’d enjoyed since I was seven. Without knowing the reason, I sensed that life had changed. It had changed for me and for my parents. Our lives were never as simple or carefree again.
It was months later when my mother explained to me that my little brother had Down Syndrome. Her disclosure resulted from my repeated begging to take my new, beautiful brother to school for “show and tell.” I can still see the tomato-red kitchen counter with my fingers spread and gripping for dear life as she told me that Jon had a problem, that he would never grow into the brother I pictured in my mind, that he had many physical problems and needed to be protected. She also told me that we would always love him and he would love us. She told me that Jon was special. She also told me that we would always love him and he would love us.
Now I am a playwright. My audience is young people and their families. I tell stories through the characters I create. Much of the story of Dance with Me is from my imagination, from the “what if” questions that playwrights always ask. Some of the play is structured to be dramatic, to lead the audience, step by step, on a journey. Some of Dance with Me is the truth. It is my truth, but may not be the truth of those who struggle in similar situations. I am not Cricket and Tom is not my brother, Jon. Dance with Me is a story with its own life.
For myself, watching the play in a darkened theater, I take pleasure in my own small creations: a brother for Cricket who can dance on and on without physical limitations; the celebration of a unique spirit, quick to laugh, love and forgive; and the memory of “Old MacDonald had a farm, ei, ei, o…” sung late at night to my sweet, special brother Jon.
By Dr. Howard Martin
Founder, Jellybean Conspiracy
Growing up, three of my ….. siblings Olive, Alison, and Jeffi Martin were born with something missing from the cells of their bodies, an enzyme whose absence caused multiple, severe disabilities. The condition is now called MPS — Hurler’s Syndrome, but we did not know these names at the time (the 1950s). All we knew was that something deeply mysterious — and apparently inexplicable — was happening to them.
From a medical point of view, the shape of the mystery was quite similar for each of them. In about their third year of life, they began to have trouble breathing and would sometimes poke their tongues out between their teeth, as if clearing a space for air. Their stomachs began to swell (actually it was caused by enlargement of the liver and spleen), their hair grew thicker, and the shape of their faces changed. At a certain point, they stopped learning new words and began to forget some of the words they already knew. Over long months, they got weaker and weaker, unable to get out of bed, unable to feed themselves, unable to tell us where they were hurting. Their resources for fighting infection dwindled to zero and in the end they had no strength left to live. Olive died when she was 10. Alison died when she was 17. Jeffi died a few weeks after his 13th birthday.
I cannot honestly say that life was easy for us during those years. It sometimes seemed as if chaos had descended upon our house and we were constantly beset by small disasters: the keyboard of the baby grand piano tattooed with a screwdriver; an antique dresser redecorated with a bread-knife; hamburger meat from the refrigerator randomly applied to the dining room window; ink spilled in the aquarium and the fish belly up on the surface of the water; homework assignments spoiled, precious possessions lost, trips cancelled, visits to neighbors or friends cut short. My other siblings and I have many stories to tell–of awkward moments in public places, of messes to clean up, of sleepless nights, of emergency-room visits, and of baffled doctors coming and going. Every night, at our family prayers around the dinner table, we asked for a miracle–that Ollie, Allie and Jeffi would “get better.”
We never saw the miracle we had most dearly hoped to see. I guess that’s always the way it is with prayers. We did, however, have hints of another kind miracle, and bit by bit, we learned to see our siblings as gifts in our home just the way they were. They brought treasures of unexpected brightness to our family.
Among these treasures was the gift of song. My beautiful sister, Olive, was a singer. Long after she had forgotten many other things, she remembered the words and the music of songs she had learned in the first five years of her life. Throughout the days she lived upon this earth, her voice remained pure and true, and the melodies she sang could fill our hearts with joy. She loved the old English folk song about London Bridge:
London Bridge is falling down,
Falling down, falling down.
London Bridge is falling down
My fair lady.
She would sing the refrain over and over again—my fair lady, a-lady, a-lady– and we would all join in, answering her with the same words. The sweetness of the sound, the comforting familiarity of it, lingers even now in my memory.
Is there such a thing as a “gift” of serenity? If there is, then that’s the gift my third sister, Alison, brought into our lives. When we looked into her still, brown eyes, we saw no hint of anxiety or despair. We perceived, instead, a gentle reassuring light, that seemed to suggest that we were safe in the universe, and that there was no reason, ultimately, to be afraid. “Luh-hly,” she would say as she sipped a cup of tea, “Lovely.” She saw loveliness in a cup of tea and in the simple fact of her existence. By making short poems of her wonder, she revealed the essence of her life and made her own irreplaceable contribution to the world.
My little brother, Jeffi, gave us the treasure of laughter. His art was acting and he would put shows on for us at the drop of a hat. With our mother’s white gloves pulled up to his elbows, he’d give an impression of a traffic cop directing imaginary traffic along imaginary streets. He’d lace up our dad’s work boots, several sizes too big, and offer an improvised scene of a workman tending the family garden, chopping away at the lawn with a pair of long-handled edging sheers. He’d dress himself as a motor scooter rider – crash helmet, riding gloves and all, and pretend he was speeding to far-away places, beeping the horn at slow-coaches and Sunday drivers on the way.
Jeffi saw himself as an entertainer and, in his own way, as a social critic. He thought dirty socks were a social problem, especially when they were left lying around the house. He would pick up a pair of well-used hose—never his own—and make a grand gesture of waving them in the air with one hand and holding his nose with the other. “PEEYEW” he would say, “PEEYEW.” He’d grin and dance and mimic and wrestle and play practical jokes, with never a hint of malice, and when the show was over, he’d give away strong warm hugs. He loved us all—even the stranger who came to the door— without condition. What more could we have asked?
In one of his books of Celtic wisdom, John O’Donohue writes: “The Divine Artist brought no child into the world without the light of Divine Beauty.” I was privileged to catch glimpses of that beauty in faces my own beloved siblings and I continue to see it in the lives of the hundreds of young people, with and without disabilities, who participate in the Jellybean Conspiracy.